i'm gonna kill myself soon

by Glitter Glue

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about

I've been writing and recording this album over the last 7 or so months, it's been a coping mechanism for my depression and anxiety to write these songs and I probably would have actually killed myself by now if it wasn't for being able to translate my emotions into music. I hope you enjoy my first full length album.
Thank you for giving me a reason to live.
Love you.
-Aaron

Recording: All tracks recorded on my phone (Samsung Galaxy S4), and edited with audacity, you can easily find the program for free online through google.

Glitter Glue would like to thank: A very drunk Joe for encouraging me to continue playing music all of the time, check out his music on joe-gr.bandcamp.com/releases , Ben Floats for being the sickest dude I know and always jamming with me and supporting my music and playing shows with me, his music is at benfloats.bandcamp.com and soundcloud.com/benfloats4evr , my family for being supportive as fuck and watching me play and hauling me around to shows, and I'd also like to thank all dogs. Mostly, even more than the dogs, I'd like to thank everybody who likes my music. Thank you.

credits

released December 12, 2015

All songs written and performed (Guitar and vocals) by Aaron Schuitema (Glitter Glue)
Poetry sample in the beginning of track five is by Michael Lee

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Track Name: not letting you be alone
I want to take your life, before I take mine
I can not fix myself, and I'm not letting you live alone in this life
I'm not letting you be alone in this goddamn world
I'm not letting you be alone
Track Name: courtney (valori)
Courtney, I think you might be too good for me
I'm feeling pathetic down here on my knees
Valori, I think you might be the death of me
And I've been here before, but I'm starting to like it
Oh no, I think I'm starting to like it
I'm given to many choices
And I'm starting to like this

Courtney, I knew you'd be too good for me
I'm feeling pathetic, for feeling so apathetic
Valori, we both knew you'd be the death of me
And It's not that big of deal, I'm just starting to like it this time
I'm given too many choices in life
And I'm starting to like it this time

Courtney and Valori
Track Name: dust bunnies
I've got dust bunnies in my pocket
I've got thoughts in my head
I've got money in my wallet
And I wish I didn't need it, oh
I've got voices in my head
And they talk all the time
But they're not so bad
It's just that no one understands them
Track Name: total surrender
Choke me out
I don't wanna feel myself anymore
Gouge my eyes out of my skull
I don't wanna see this world anymore

Choke me out
I don't wanna be here anymore
Suffocate me with your thighs
Castrate me with your smile
Track Name: whiskey song episode ii: the whiskening
I said I want to die, and all she said was I don't wanna talk about death
So I said baby girl, you might just have a death boy on your hands soon

These women they don't give a damn about me
Not that it really matters because none of them could ever make me feel like the whiskey does
Oh, I'm giving up
None of them could ever make me feel like the whiskey does
Track Name: Myself, I, & You
I think the greatest gift that I've been given
Is this sad, sad life that I've been livin'
And I don't know how I feel about you know
You're just like me but I still hate myself

I think the greatest gift that I've been given
Is this sad, sad life that I'm still somehow livin'
And if I hate myself does that mean that I hate you?
I don't know, but I think that my love for you is true

I think the greatest gift that I've been given
Is this sad, sad life that I'm still somehow livin'
And if I hate myself does that mean that I hate you?
I don't know, but instead of me myself and I it's been me myself and you
Track Name: thank you, I love you
Cans of coke and rotting teeth
I've got all these things I don't even need
And I don't need you
But goddamn, do I want you
I've got a pack of cigarettes that's full
And I don't even smoke
I just keep 'em on me as a joke
And if I ever catch the habit
It'd be pretty nice to have it when I need it
Just like I've got you
And I can't tell you why your life is so goddamn tragic
I don't need anyone, I don't need you

You say I'm never happy, and that might be true
But in reality I just need some time I'm away from you
I appreciate that you're trying to help
But right now I just need some time to myself

La la la
I don't need you
La la la
I don't need you
La la la
I don't need anyone, I don't need you
La la la
I don't need you, but goddamn do I want you
Track Name: ultra ulcer phenomenon 2k15
My teeth are grainy
From dried up blood, that I've been spitting out
If I found out I was dying, I wouldn't even fight

Because today's not a good day
Today's not a great day
Today's not a good day
It's not a good day to be alive

My throat is burning
From stomach acid that I've been puking up
I'm pretty sure that it's got holes in it
From all these pills that I've been scarfing down
If I found out I was dying, I don't think I could fight it.

I don't have the strength in me
Oh, I don't have the strength in me
Oh, I don't have the strength in me
Track Name: bummed boy
I've got holes in the socks on my feet
I've got dirt in my bedsheets
And oh my room it tends to smell like shit
Because all I ever wanna do is sulk in my bed

Oh, you know me
I've been losing friends, I've been losing sleep
Oh, you know me
I've been losing myself, I've been losing everything

I've been feeling insecure
I want to break every mirror in my house
I've been pushing you away so hard
That you might just fall out of love with me
Oh, you know me
I've been losing who I am, I've been losing everything